You are right - I will never give up. My ex-wife has hidden behind the moral high ground of " supporting our kids " to an ever increasing dollar amount for her to waste and blow. The intentions of her heart have been to destroy me, and my life. Leave me with little or nothing and make it impossible for me to be gainfully employed. Did I miss some payments due to financial setbacks-- like losing income? Yes. Was I perfect? No. Have I paid the best I could all along? Yes. Did this deter her in her vindictiveness and hatred? Nope! Not at all. She tossed out the term- "deadbeat dad" - and justified for peoples eyes, her continuing in her desire and pleasure at destroying a life. This has nothing to do with me. This is of a person that just enjoys destroying someones life. This is just her. As a matter of hope to all the men that have suffered this in the one life we live- for every time that she tried to hurt me and leave me defeated in life- God gave me a grace to be able to deal with it. Please believe in this. As I talked to her recently, as all our kids are grown, I can easily see how little she has grown and has even regressed over the years. Even these she sees as my fault- even now she cannot see that it was her desire to destroy that destroyed her.
As I was driving home after this conversation, I was thinking- I have no money to speak of. Its been very difficult to get good work and almost impossible to make good money consistently. But I felt very good. It was very clear to me how much I have grown and how rich Ive become. I actually felt rich, And I thanked God-- Im glad it came out as it did for me. I never thought I would say that. And remember, dont give up.... Gods ways work. Amen.
